Sunday, August 14, 2011

What do you do when doctors diagnose you with nearly everything?

I have been going to see psychiatrist sense i was about 19, i started having problems when i was, crap pretty much a baby, biting my nails, biting people, no feelings, hurting myself by accident, i wouldnt feel it, then, i got older. I have depression, mood swings starting around 14, and started to cut myself. I was always silent, till i was 18 and got tired of bully's etc, and just talked. I never have made a close friend, girl anyway, just boys, lol, but we had more in common to talk about. i Married at 17 had a child, i'm still married, same man, and in my 20's was diagnosed with bi- polar, PTSD, General Anxiety disorder, panic disorder and some OCD qualities. now many years later, 4 or 5 stints in the psych ward, for extreme cutting and suicide attempts, I am diagnosed as OCD, ADD, PTSD, Generalized anxiety disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder, and have had doctors tell me I have Asperger's the last i agree with and the anxiety issues, but am soooo confused, I'm on ritalin 5 mg and on klonipin 3 to 4 mil a day, depakote and sleeping pills, ugg, i get towhere i dont know what to do! I'm now 38 and already on disability because i cant stand to be around people for to long, and i have almost no memory, im distracted and emotionless alot of the time, or or emotional about nothing, thou noone knows cause i dont show it, and i go cut again.. i am running out of options here, and i have been on literally almost every med known to man, and i am over sensitive to it all! One actually shut down my whole digestive system, and another i woke up and couldnt use my legs! they thought i had Multiple Schlerosis! anyone out there have any ideas??? the ice cubes in the hands do not work for cutting, it makes me more mad, at what, i dont know... i have no reason for my mood shifts, if anyone out there knows anything about asperger's, do u think these symptoms can all come from it? or different, things , i.e. i have multiple problems? thanks, any reply would be great.

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